Why She Refused to Discuss It


Before the storm, the dust began swirling, great manes of it like smoke galloping
along the path above the meadow. The heat of it sat with you on the hotel balcony. The
weather was your finest entertainment.
In the chipped blue jug filled with earth, a thick green plant continued drying in the
afternoon’s sunlight and suddenly swarmed with a blaze of insects, an amusement so
foreign it drew you from your chrysalis. Wings still dripping, you leaned toward that
event of weather that surprised you with its similarity to your releasing heart, and the sea
seemed to address you, to address the small complaint of life you had been since that
shadowy escape from the moods of your previous involvement. Could you really have
been defied in your best attempts at order?
And somehow even that wet deviation fell to the inertia you temporarily rise from
now to send your senses straining out over the plaza, beyond the fishnets swaying on
their drying racks where nothing is interested in the story of your mistakes, not the lush
limetrees enlivened with the growing breezes or the stolid wooden pier reaching out
tenaciously into the wild flights of water spouting as the rain begins to fall, not the
cobbles in the plaza steaming with the cool touch of another welcomed stranger, and in
the midst of all this fleeting metamorphosis, you still see yourself through the slowly
rising fog as a gesture of some late runner of errands impatiently crossing the familiar
streets, dripping with affection, to do something impulsive for someone foreign whose
beauty lies brilliantly in her shadows.
Then suddenly there are horses running in the plaza, the long-awaited rain
streaming from genderless manes, and the one white horse, frightened by the thunder,
stands turned towards a darkened building, nervously stamping his hooves, breathing
rapidly, excited by its fear.

Rich Ives is the author of Tunneling to the Moon: A Psychological Gardener’s Book of Days currently being published in serial @ Silenced Press everyday in 2014 and forthcoming in paperback. Begin from the beginning, catch up, read daily. Just refer to the Burrow Guide.