A New Religion
It’s true. All the coal mines in all the world and all the coal in them is not enough darkness for what we have to do every day of our lives.
If you’ve been busy trying to get the extra joy out of your joy, you could open the window and entertain the first delight you notice with a new religion.
Or perhaps this particular cave belongs to a group of believers called the Presbyterians and that one you passed up is for Catholics. You can pretend there’s light in any of these caves if you stay long enough. Or perhaps you could just learn to appreciate the darkness.
If, for example, her name’s Rachel, then what I need to say is that Rachel likes to watch, Rachel likes to watch hard.
In that darkness Rachel says, “Touch this little knob. Touch it like this.” It’s like a dinner that could cry itself to sleep. Say you want maybe an alternative universe and the approach is no longer obvious.
Why not don’t you just whisper some secrets like we’re willows and the wind is a willow god? Wouldn’t that be dark enough?
It could all be symbolized by the wobble of a drunk bird. It accommodates. It’s an arrangement of ideas. It’s oddly natural. It wasn’t available to our afterlife. But it believed hard. Oh oh oh it believed.
Somebody asks and somebody just gives it away. Somebody asks and it coughs. Turn and close the window. Cough. Cough some more.
That sound is the same in darkness but you have to account for the hand dandling your essence. You have to know if the hand’s yours and you have to think about Rachel, Rachel watching.
Because Rachel’s part of the darkness. Rachel speaks like the darkness. But Rachel’s not waiting for you to go to sleep. Neither is Rachel offering any escape. She’s not your lover. She’s not anyone’s lover. But you can believe in what she offers.
Rich Ives is the author of Tunneling to the Moon: A Psychological Gardener’s Book of Days currently being published in serial @ Silenced Press everyday in 2014 and forthcoming in paperback. Begin from the beginning, catch up, read daily. Just refer to the Burrow Guide.